Monday, September 14, 2009

just to say sorry

i'm sorry that i'm like this, i'm sorry that i'm sad.
i'm sorry that i can't be normal.. i guess it's kinda bad.
i'm sorry that i love you and just can't live without.
i'm sorry that i ruined your life with all my doubts.

i guess i really hate him and apparantly that's bad.
but honestly, he makes me very, very sad.
so please consider this as an apologetic cry.
if i continue to live this way i might as well die.

one thing that is worse than my whole entire life,
is that this letter, if you read it, will cut your heart like a knife.

so i guess this is my secret poem,
only because i'm very lonesome.

just one final word i really wish to say:
please just keep on assuming that i am perfectly okay.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009


right now i feel empty.
i don't know why.
but i feel empty.

so i'm writing.
i'm writing knowing that it won't help,
but it's good to try.

so here i am writing with emptiness.

why do i feel like this?
i feel lost in a sea of people.
i don't know which way to turn.

so i just guess and hope for the best.

Monday, September 7, 2009

someone can change you

lets say you meet someone... and they change your world.
You didn't care about life before... and then you meet them.

They're so amazing that they change your look at life.

So what happened?

they put a charm on you,
a charm that even your own feeling couldn't overcome.
and they'll either stay by your side,
or take your soul away.

So be careful when losing your feeling for love.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

messed up

i'm messed up

no one gets it.

no one,

and i mean that.

i cry more than anyone knows.

i get nervous over stupid little things.

i'm like a baby that needs her mother.

a lot.

i hate him more that anything.


i wish she would help me through this.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009


opportunities haunt me in life.
which road do i take?
what's my next move?
i have time, enough time to figure this all out.
but still. there it is that empty choice right infront of me.
confused, alone, and non-decided.
i'm not decided.

a young and wise brunette boy once said "we're here in a yellow truck a road ahead of us and nothing but opportunities."

i know what that means. i understand. for once, i get it.

when he said it, it was literal. but metaphorically...
think. think. think.
think about it.

the road you are on is the road you'll be on for the rest of your life.
you decide when turns come. you decide.
you make the turns. weather good or bad.
those turns are yours to keep and think about for the rest of your life.

so make them count.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

sometimes people pretend

People can pretend. They pretend to be something they're not. They pretend to be better than you. They pretend they don't care, or care too muh. Why? Because they're insecure. Think about it: They pretend they're better than you because they're intimidated. Stand up. Stand up for yourself. Don't pretend. Be yourself. Stop friends from pretending, or changing. Stand up.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

except me.♥

if you can't except me than maybe you should just go . maybe you shouldn't hang out with me. maybe we should never have met. maybe, just maybe, you might want to try to come through as a friend. when i need you, you weren't there. nice job. you crushed my life.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

fairy tales.♥

once upon a time. every great tale starts with a "once upon a time". && ends with a "and they lived happily ever after". ahh, fairy definition;- noun a story, usually for children, about elves, hobgoblins, dragons, fairies, or other magical creatures.{definition from} every little girl would beg their parents to read them one story. "Once upon a time," they would begin. the little girl lets out a yawn, sits back, && relaxes. time passes by, the voice of their mom or dad telling the story comforts them to a light sleep...&& now the story comes to an end. and then a sweet whisper says " and they lived happily ever after". the book is closed. the little girl is in a deep sleep. with a kiss on the head, and a parently gaze, they too, are off to bed. && this little girl is left dreaming of her prince charming, her happily ever after, && her one true love.but little does she know, ten years from now, she with suffer heart breaks, friendship aches, && knowing that she gave up on her happily ever after a long time ago. because the only thing fairy tales ever taught her.was that you will always get your own "story book" ending...
now in life do you get a story book ending? only if you're lucky...

Saturday, May 9, 2009


&& i'm accepting advice. all you have to do is email me at with the following form filled out;

{state problem here. a short & sweet paragraph would be best.}
[give example in three simple sentences.]
(your first name here or a creative name that has to do with your problem.)

i will email you the advice and then post it with the title "advice for _______"
except the blank is filled in with the name you signed.

i give great advice!♥

things in life that go unseen.♥

every little move, action, emotion has a meaning that no one takes the time to figure out. like if your crush looks at you for a second longer than he needs to, he might like you back. or if your best friend has a twinkle in her eye when she says she's 'sorry' for not being able to hang out, she really can't be more excited about the plans she made without you. and if your ex is looking around hopelessly for a girl watching you dance with a hot guy at the school dance, he could be regretting breaking up with you. see, things in life go unseen all the time. i know the title of this entry sounds like a horror movie, but if you really think about it...

life is a secret horror film where people don't care if you're screaming.♥

Friday, May 8, 2009

people change.♥

have you ever had a close friend change? it's like one minute you are able to laugh, have fun, make faces and be crazy; and then the next minute they are somehow different. sure you are still friends, but you aren't able to be crazy and do all the other stuff you used to do. maybe they think they are better than you now. maybe they are having some problems at home. maybe they truly don't wanna be friends anymore, but they are too nice to admit it. you may think you've found a friend that is true, that will always be your friend and will never change. but wake up and realize

People Change!

sorry to be so cold, but it's a cold world out there.♥